What can I say. I originally came to this site for fun only. Looking for occasional r/t hook ups. Then I screwed up and feel in love. I was betrayed and destroyed. Now it seems every time I start to get attached to someone, every time I begin to care, it is Me that ends up hurting them. I used to think I knew what I was doing. After a life time of doing it one would think that to be true but now I'm not so sure. Perhaps I did need a mentor after all. Do I need a mentor? Is there anyone out there capable of salvaging something from whats left? No I think not, I think it's to late. After all the debates with people that say you should not have any emotion, that to have feelings for your sub, to care for them on an emotional level, to (God forbid) love them, is a mistake. Now I begin to think I was wrong and they were right. I'm not sure I can function like that. Except for the fact now that I am most definitely broken, somewhere, deep inside. I am numb, I have no feelings. Do yourself a favor and stay away. Run, hide. Be afraid, be very afraid. I don't give a shit if I live or die and I will not blink an eye about taking you with Me. Fuck it, I'll enjoy the company on the trip to hell. Do yourself a favor and leave Me to suffer alone and in peace. No I'm not from Florida and no none of the rest of the personal information is correct. All I'll say is that I live close to the location list and I am close to the age listed.
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My Ideal Person:
I'm looking for a complete and total masochist painslut slave. I don't want to like you. I don't want to love you or any of that shit. I just want to beat you, hurt you, make you suffer and FUCK you. I am DAMAGED goods!!! Don't you get it? Don't fall in love with Me. Don't care about Me. Because in the end, if you do I will only hurt you and not in that good BDSM way. I don't want to care for anyone anymore. I'm tired of causing that kind of pain. And only the type of women I describe here are safe from it.
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